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Vice Ganda reveals that he had sexual encounters with many male celebrities - Push.com.ph

2011-10-01T22:46:00.000+08:00

Vice Ganda reveals that he had sexual encounters with many male celebrities - Push.com.ph

Maulan na umaga

2011-07-04T07:42:00.000+08:00

Ngiti by Ronnie Liang - playing over the kapitbahay :] brings back memories, again... ... ...

umuulan na naman??? ay ang sarap talagang matulog... bad trip... may homework pa naman si Rachel... tsk... tsk...

July 2 2011

2011-07-03T12:58:00.000+08:00

On this same day last year, July 2 2010, God has blessed my life with an unexpected person. Indeed he came to me as a surprise. It was such a fairy tale experience that came true. I suppose on this day thru God's infinite mercy was telling me, "My child in this lifetime I also wanted you to feel happy, to feel how it is like, to feel how it is to be loved and cared of by someone, something that is genuine, from the bottom of his heart, something grand, to experience such a wonderful feeling even for a short period of time." The Lord was just about right. I am truly grateful for the gift that on this day last year he made me feel very special by blessing me with him. I can never dismiss the fact that it was real, that I was loved. It was pure bliss.

The experience was different compared to the few past that I have had. We were together almost everyday of our blessed lives. It was a sharing of life. He doesn't need material things from me, all that he cares about was how much I loved him. In return there was nothing more that I can give as it seemed he had everything provided for. All that I could give in appreciation of his love was to take care of him and to be as faithful for all that I could. I have never lacked so much sleep in my life during those times. Yet I would still feel great because he took my stress away. He was my refuge. He was my love.

We would spend hours together looking at the clear vast sky dawned by the stars, dreaming of forever, talking of a future acceptance, of many years of togetherness. I recall we were counting the weeks back to how closer we were to our Anniversary. And that is today. We were wishing of years and not months. I will never live to forget the moments we once shared. I am thankful that when he chose to risk and try loving and finding out how it is on the other side of the world he chose me. I know that I am exceptional to him. I am unique. Of all the people that may come into his life, that he may choose to love then and now and in the days to come, I will stand out. I am the ONE. I know he won't forget.

It was a fairy tale.

It was full of uncertainty, he pleaded assurance. He made promises which he cannot keep. As they say, it only takes a boy to make promises but it only takes a man to fulfill those.

Due to circumstances the wonderful relationship has to end. We parted ways. He chose his parents' joy over his personal happiness. I understood that pain. Even I would opt for the greater pleasure of my parents knowing that making them happy will be a blessing for me in the days to come. Though I understood, it was tragic for me. It was such grueling pain to let go someone I love, someone who made me feel so special, he was simply the best I ever had.

The pain made me forget how loved and blessed I am to begin with. That this relationship was simply an icing on top of the cake that I already have. That without this icing the cake was still so grand and tasteful that I already have all that I could ask for. Yes, there is nothing more that I could ask for. And these times were a reality check of who was supporting me to carry on.

October 25 2010, the day after my birthday and few days after arriving from Singapore, we started getting close again. Seeing each other, bonding moments, talking. For two weeks we were trying to be friends. It was not successful. He slipped away. Day after Christmas of 2010 we were together again. Again, that was just it. And finally Summer of this year we have been going out again. This time it was different. I have to give up. We cannot be friends. It took a lot of courage to make that final say. I have to think of the better. We are simply not meant for each other. His generation and definition of a relationship is different from mine. Our worlds are separate entities. His family values and up bringing is totally off from mine. [I believe this was one of the reasons why he loved me - he found the love he was eager to have from me.]

Letting go and moving on is not an easy task. It is not something that I can fast track. I learned that I should not be pushing myself too hard to move on because this only aggravates how I feel. I know that it will come. It may not be now but I know for sure that it will be soon. If moving on for me is taking too long then this brings me into a better position knowing who I am. This is such a positive trait knowing that I have truly loved and gave my best in every relationship that I was into. Who would not want a person like that? I have come to terms with life. I learned to accept the fact that we are no longer together and we cannot bring the past back. I have learned even more that it was just the happy memories gone by; that not for long these happy moments will be back in HIS infinite goodness and mercy. I have to trust. I have to hold on. If he does come in my journey of life then Thank You Lord. If he doesn't then still I am grateful. For these experiences are priceless as these make me a better person. Who am I?

This is such an experience really worth sharing. After all the pain God has showered me with more blessings than I could ever imagine. I have travelled locally and internationally with family and friends. I gained more friends. I joined Aegis PeopleSupport April of this year as their Quality Manager (they welcomed me wholeheartedly and is taking good care of me). The best of my career does not end as I prepare to meet a new challenge with HP Asia Pacific (HK) by August of this year as a Customer Project/Program Manager III (Supplier Quality Manager).

I would like to acknowledge the Lord today for making me this strong. For bringing me this far. For blessing me so much that I could share. I am so grateful that whoever I am today is not just because of this experience but it was all because of HIM.

God's perfect birthday present

2010-10-29T05:14:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

Thank you for your *belated* birthday gift that I received last Oct 25. Thank you for blessing me. I always feel that *he* is your blessing to me and am glad that your gift was to make us okay now. I offer this blessing back to you. You make me fabulous! I am GLAD!

Again Lord, thank you. I hope this time, we can make things right and a lot better for the two of us with your guidance.

Love,

Rachel

Monday 04.Oct.2010

2010-10-04T15:00:00.000+08:00

HELLO Blog!

It's wonderful to be back!

Na miss kita Blog ko.

Short na hair ko Blog... Alam mo Blog kahit na patuloy ko pa rin nilalabanan ang battle ko may masasaya din namang moments..

Basta Blog dyan ka lang ha..

Di mo ako iiwan di ba?

Yehey!

Friday 20 Aug 2010

2010-08-20T09:10:00.000+08:00

Last night sinadya kong sumunod sa "secret shop" at magpa kyut. Pero syempre dedma kunyari. Pagdating ko tinawag nya akong "aport" (tropa). Nagtanong ng oras sa tropa nya. Dinedma ko lang yung pagtatanong kasi ang dami namang pwede sumagot eh. Narinig ko syang tinawag akong "bhie" ulet. Pampakilig siguro. Pero kunyari wala akong narinig, hahaha. Pero sinagot ko pa rin yung oras. 7:47. Pa-yosi daw sya. Inabot ko ang kaha ng yosi ko. Sabay talikod sa kanya. Inabot nya sa balikat ko ang yosi. Ipinatong nya sa balikat ko. Habang humihithit ng usok nagtitinginan lang kami. Di ko alam kun nangungusap ang aming mga mata. Wala akong maramdaman. Hanggang nagpaalam na sya sa tropa nya. Di ko sya tinitingnan ng deretso. Pero kita ko sa peripheral vision ko na mga 3 times syang tumingin sakin na para bang gusto nyang magpaalam din sakin at tawagin ako kase di ako tumitingin sa kanya...

Hay, hirap... Ngayon na-tetense ako kasi di ko alam kun pano yung approach para magkasama kami this weekend. I am hopeful. I am positive. I can wait pa naman eh. Sa lagay ngayon mukhang umo-okay na kami. Sana patuloy na to. Sana ibalik na namin ang pagtetext. Hinihintay ko lang na sya mauna. 5 days of not texting. This is a sacrifice for me.

Thursday 19 Aug 2010

2010-08-19T15:25:00.000+08:00

heto lang eh kun maaalala ko pa sharply.. here it goes.

Tuesday - I pulled her sister for a short talk kasi nakakainis na, nakakagalit, may exam sya kinabukasan pero maghapon syang naka tambay. Nakaka bwisit kase ganun lang ang makikita ko kapalit ng winasak naming relasyon at ng lahat ng pighati na pinagdadaanan ko. Taena di ba! Gago. Lumapit sya samin ng Ate nya at nagtanong kung bakit. Ang sabi ko lang "sana mag aral ka ng mabuti di ba..." Later on napatambay ako at andun sya. Pumasok sa bahay. Kinuha ang gitara. Nagsimulang tumugtog. As usual, peyborit nyang gitarahin ang kantang may lyrics na "minamahal kita, ba't di ka maniwala..." Di ko lang alam kung tama ako sa lyrics na yan. Lumipas pa ang ilang saglit ay It Might Be You naman ang ginigitara. Ay ang sarap. Para akong hinaharana kasi paminsan minsan ay tumitingin naman sya sakin. Nakakakilig di ba? Ito ang nag udyok sakin na ibigay na sa kanya yung book na nabili ko nun magkita kami ni Nica over the weekend. Inabot ko ito sa kanya. Sabi ko para sa best friend ko. Dinedma nya. Wala kahit na Thank You. Pero after some time tiningnan naman nya yung cover ng book. Dito nagtatapos ang yugtong ito.

Wednesday - inusisa ko sa Ate nya kun ano ang ginawa sa book. Itinago lang daw sa kabinet nya kasi di naman ito mahilig magbasa. Okay. So at least itinago di ba. Masaya na rin ako. Yung move nya lang kahapon is a big change na. Habang naglalaro sya ng basketball hinuhuli ko ang atensyon nya. Sabi ko isnabero ang Bes ko. Inulit ko. Sabi nya naglalaro daw kasi sya. Sabi ko "Ay galit ang Bes ko..." Mataray eh... ilang saglit pa sa kalagitnaan ng game tumingin sya sakin sabay ngiti at kibit ng kilay. Okay na rin. Sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, kun sino yung taong nanakit sayo, sya rin ang papawi nito (may assumption na mahal mo yung tao kase kun kaaway mo talaga ito i think this won't apply, hahaha). Pagkatapos ng laro niyaya nya ang tropa nya sa "secret shop." Nagsabi ako na gusto kong sumama. Nun una di nya ako pinapansin pa. Hanggang sabi nya "sige tara sama ka." Dun kami ulet nagusap. Nakikipagbiruan pa sya. Ngakukwento na. It seems okay na. Nagsisimula ng bumalik sa dati.

Di na ako sumunod pa sa kanila nun lumipat sila ng pwesto. Napapaisip na ako. Ayoko ng tumambay pa kasama ng tropa nya. Ayoko ng sumama kase may tropa sya. Tumuloy ako sa playground ng magisa at dun nag muni muni. Napapaisip ako. Di nga kami bagay. Ewan ko sa kanya kun ano pa ang merong nalalabi para sa akin sa puso nya. Wala akong alam. Kami pa pero wala na akong alam sa nararamdaman nya.

Para akong nakalutang na hindi ko maintidihan. Di ko rin naman na sya maintindihan sa mga moves nya kase nag stop na rin sya mag communicate kun bakit ganun ang behavior nya or treatment nya sakin. Am lost. Di ko na nga alam kun magtitiwala pa rin ba ako kun wala naman na akong pinanghahawakan pa. Mahirap.

Sana maging maayos na ang lahat. Sana lumipas na ang mga isyu. Sana maibalik ng muli yung nakaraan kase ang sarap mag mahal. Ang saya. Sana. Puro sana.

Mahal na mahal pa rin kita.

Sunday 15 August 2010

2010-08-15T19:02:00.000+08:00

via SMS - i'm back.. I love you

via SMS - Di kita matiis mahal talaga kita. Solid na to.

At Bonifacio High Street with Nica in the afternoon. She gave me a gift (book) with the hopes of putting my life and relationship in "perspective."

Thanks a lot sis. I appreciate all the love.

Tuesday 10 Aug 2010

2010-08-10T18:03:00.000+08:00

masaya ang gabing ito. di man kami nagkausap sa text buong araw pero nagkita naman kami nun tumambay ako sa labas kasama ang ate nya habang sya ay nag gigitara. wari ko ba'y ako'y hinaharana nya sapagkat sya'y nagpaparinig ng mga tugtugin na may kabuluhan para sa amin sabay titig pa..

nagkakwentuhan din kami ng ate nya dapit hapon at nakwento nito na nangungulila rin sa akin ang aking minamahal. si pag-ibig daw ay nagsabi na ako'y kanyang pinagmamasdan kagabi at nais sanang samahan sa aking pagiisa. di raw sya sanay na nakikitang ako'y magisa dahil lagi kaming magkasama sa tuwing ako'y nasa labas at naglalakad.

bhie, ako'y lubos na nangungulila din sa'yo. mahal na mahal kita.

Friday 06 August 2010

2010-08-06T18:25:00.000+08:00

Today (this afternoon) is but another lowlight in my life (lovelife). I/We am/are going thru another challenge. You all have been witnesses of how happy I am to be inlove and be loved by someone. Yet recently we are being torn apart. Being separated from each other. How will this love survive? How will this love last? How much should it take for me to be happy? I am full of questions right now. I can't seem to understand why this world has to be so cruel to someone like me when I have been trying my best to be the most loving person this world could ever be proud of. How do I last this day without your love?

Wednesday 04 August 2010

2010-08-04T17:26:00.000+08:00

bhie

thanks for the time

I won't last a day without your love.

Monday, 02 August 2010

2010-08-02T17:22:00.000+08:00

finally, the day has come... done with the monthsary on the day itself... but will be celebrating for real this weekend... Love you bhie... Looking forward to more months of the years that is about to come.

Sunday, 01 August 2010

2010-08-01T18:01:00.000+08:00

From The Fort. Met with Sis Nica. Pagod all day. Relieving naman pagdating sa bahay kase magkasama kami ni bhie. Masaya. Monthsary bukas.

Saturday, 31 July 2010

2010-07-31T18:33:00.000+08:00

Kala ko talaga kanina mag gi-give-up na si bhie. Ninerbyos ako na bibitaw na sya... Kawawa naman sya... Nahihirapan... Ramdam ko sa pananahimik nya... Nakikita ko sa mga mata nya...

Ang dami kasing asungot sa paligid! mga inggitero/a, tsismoso/a, pakialamero/a. mamatay na kayong lahat...

pwede patahimikin nyo na kami kasi masaya naman kami eh... pwede maging masaya na rin lang kayo sa mga buhay nyo? pwede? lubayan nyo na kami... pwede? manahimik na lang, pwede? pwede bang "no comment" na lang?

Lagi na lang ba ganito???

Pwede, ako naman?

Wednesday, 28 July 2010

2010-07-28T15:21:00.000+08:00

Bhie was here as soon as he arrived home. We spent time having a snack on our rooftop. Then he left to accompany his sister... Gusto nya gumala muna...

Antok na ulet... Waiting for bhie to go home... I created an FB account because of bhie... We are now connected- discreetly.

Going back to rest coz he will be back home soon...

Saturday 17 July 2010

2010-07-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

Picked-up bhie after work and went to Ever Gotesco Commonwealth to watch his sister's Center for Pop Mall Tour. Tired. But what's "tired" when you are with the one you love right? Was with his family during the affair. Had dinner together before going home. Happy. We spent time together still after arriving.

Some missives; take-aways...

On the way home I was complaining that he was dull and he wasn't the usual him when we are together. I got really worried and scared. Upon reaching home he texted me right away saying sorry coz he was just tired and that it wasn't the usual him. "mahal na mahal kita I love you very much. Sana maintindihan mo. Wag ka magtampo. Ayoko magalit ka sakin." How relieving and heart warming... Natakot din daw sya kaya nag text agad at lumabas...

"gusto ko talaga kasama kita kung pwede lang ako matulog dyan, dyan talaga ako matutulog..."

"basta bhie wag kang magalala mahal na mahal din kita; hinding hindi kita lolokohin"

"geh na bhie slip na ko i love u vry much muahh :-* ;-)"

Friday 16 July 2010

2010-07-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

Life is beautiful.

To be betrayed by a very close friend is a different story.

Today, let me share with you how beautiful life is and how serene it is to be with someone who loves you more than you could ever have imagined in your life. Today marks but one of those many days to come where love is overwhelming. Today we celebrate life again, one of the many to come.

How do I reckon this unfathomable love?

Looking at the past it is with great joy that I share this life with you. One that has come as a blessing. The surreal complexities of love.

I have always believed that there is hope. Now I become a living testament that waiting does bear fruit and that love comes at the most unexpected time, at the most unexpected moment, with the most unexpected person. I found mine. Or should I say we found ours? Never did it cross my mind that he was just there all this time. And I can't stand a day out of his range's love... I am well taken care of...

Today as well bears relief that he is doing his best for me and for us...

What more could I have asked for?

Friday, 09 July 2010 - Pumili ka

2010-07-09T12:30:00.000+08:00

Papipiliin kita.

Kun ikaw ay ako sino ang mas gugustuhin mo? Yung bata o yung nakatatanda (sa bata)?

Hindi naman siguro masamang magmahal ng mas bata kesa sayo (sabihin na nating - bata). Bakit ko nga naman hindi pipiliing magmahal ng mas bata kesa sakin kung mas nararamdaman ko naman ngayon na may nagpapahalaga sa akin, may nakakaalala, hindi sumasakit ang ulo ko, wala akong pinagdadaanang mga problema, sakit sa ulo at ang walang pakundangang paghingi ng kun anu-ano?

Bakit nga ba ako mangangamba kun dama ko naman sa bawat yakap at halik nya ang inaalay nyang pagmamahal? Bakit nga ba ako magdadalawang isip pa kun sabi nga naman nya ay mahal na mahal din nya ako? Kun sa bawat sandali na magkasama kami ay masaya kami bakit hindi nga, di ba? At sa tuwina ay mami-miss namin ang isa't-isa, why not di ba?

Kun titingnan natin ang nakaraan lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko at sa mga kaibigan ko na bakit ka pa magmamahal ng isang lalake kun sa bawat araw na lang na ginawa ng Dyos ay nagaalala ka, nagiisip ka, masakit ang ulo, hindi ka makatulog, masama ang loob mo, maiiyak ka, and on top of all these hihingian ka pa??? Gaano ba ka fair ang buhay? Nag boyfriend ka pa, di ba, kun gayan din lang naman. Nag boyfriend ka pa kun di mo naman dama na may BF ka pala...

Siguro ngayon OO hindi kagandahang tingnan kasi mas matanda naman ako ng di hamak sa kanya. May edad na ako. Bata sya. Pero darating din naman ang panahon na wala na itong saysay (kun aabot kami sa ganon).

Minsan nga natanong ko sa kanya kun bakit ako pa? Naisip namin kahit paano matured din kasi sya magisip. Siguro mas gusto nya yung mas may edad na sa kanya kasi nga naman mas may halaga sa buhay ang isang matinong relasyon kesa sa puppy love, kesa sa infatuation. Masaya kase magkasundo kami sa isang bagay- ang maniwala na may Karma. Ayaw naming lokohin ang aming mga sarili, ayaw din naman naming lokohin ang isa't-isa. Baka nga naman daw bumalik sa amin ito. At bakit nga naman kami babalik sa nakaraan kun parehas naman kaming nasaktan at naloko ng aming mga minamahal dati?

Masaya... July 2... One week na...

Mamaya pa sya darating. Sigurado ako, pagdating nya ulet pupunta sya kaagad dito sa akin para magkasama kami at makapag kwentuhan. Madalas wala naman kaming magawa kundi ang mahiga na lang at yakapin ang isa't-isa. Madalas ganun lang. Pahinga.... Ang mahalaga- masaya. Masaya yung nadarama mo na mahal ka ng yumayakap sayo at totoo sya. Masaya... Masarap ang magmahal. Mas masarap pa kesa sa banyagang tsokolate.

Kaibigan, hayaan mo, makikilala mo rin sya pagdating ng panahon. Sa ngayon hindi pa siguro. Sabi ko nga sa kanya, sana nakakalabas na kami. Sana hinog na ang panahon. Sabi nya isang taon na lang ang hihintayin namin. Sana kami pa pagdating ng panahon na yon. Malaya na kaming makakapamasyal.

Sana mas bumilis pa ang takbo ng panahon. Sana walang magbago masyado sa kanya at sa buhay ko upang umagos lang ang buhay ng kasama ko sya, tulad nung mga nakaraang araw.

Balikan natin ang tanong - kanino ka? Pili na?

-bhie-

Tuesday, 06 July 2010

2010-07-06T11:36:00.000+08:00

Today, I found myself immersed with watching You Tube videos by Juana Change. I am sharing this with you.

Mae Paner has been starring in short polotical satires and was last seen during NoyNoy's Inauguration.

Sunday, May 16

2010-05-16T20:49:00.000+08:00

Ang init! Super!

Just got back from EVER Gotesco Ortigas (Pasig actually). Has the desktop tower fixed. Jay paid for it. We went to Ever to grab some food at about 2pm. A bit late in the afternoon already and I was starving. It's a Sunday so we have to leave and get something to eat.

Was reading the newspaper this morning and most of the pages were talking about the recent election that was. On a page it was talking about the midnight appointments of PGMA. It was excruciatingly annoying given that her willful and wishful thinking of holding on to power really irks my nerves. This bitch has been wanting power all the while and even after. I could have never imagined someone so thirsty for power. Damn! The newspaper has it that PGMA has called her party mates to a caucus after the election for her speakership. What more can this troll ask for?!

Should Noynoy thru an Executive Order revoke appointments such as of the SC Chief Justice??

Should the plan of the PNP Dir Gen to resign when Noynoy holds office be admirable??

What would this new Noynoy government has in store for us??

Tubig pa nga! Mainit!

Sunday, May 02

2010-05-16T20:48:00.000+08:00

I watched Paano Na Kaya this morning when I woke up. Now am stuck to the song. It was barely 5am when I got out of bed to watch the movie. The movie Miss You Like Crazy has just ended on our big screen too. These 2 pinoy movies are a hit on my heart. Fairly moving. Although if you have seen One More Chance by the same actors you could pretty much say that the plot was the same.

Last night Cheng came with Tope and did a demo on Galvanic Spa by Nu Skin. They presented the business opportunity too. I dunno. Am not really into it now.

Slept late coming from work last night so I had to spend whole evening sleeping. This weekend will be dedicated for rest and watching movies ey.

I spoke with Mom today on funding for housing improvements. They wanted to have the 2nd floor of the Guinobatan house constructed. We also talked about my youngest brother's challenges at school flunking 3 subjects and wanting to move to another school. I have yet to speak with this young man.

Its pretty warm in here. Summer is not yet over although there are occasional rain showers. Am not sure as to why. I have no idea. Its just freak'n warm and I can't stand it. I have to stay in my room all day and our electric bill has gone really high.

Back to watching another movie, after lunch.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

2010-04-29T11:27:00.000+08:00

Thursday, April 29, 2010

3:14 PM

That was heck busy yesterday from meetings to calls. Mitz and I barely ate. We snatched food around 5am already and I stayed til about 9am. Glad I was able to deliver the MBR decks though I barely reviewed those with me being out of the office.

Heading back home I had the chance to reply back to Pao's (Castillo) SMS and he's now in college with a scholarship being a varsity team member (all info coming from him). IT. Tri-Sem. Informatics Cainta. Looking for a sponsor. Anyone?

My allergic rhinitis is still kicking in. I have been sneezing and coughing. Got something building up my throat, baaarrrfff!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

2010-04-29T11:06:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

5:21 PM

Just done watching a movie and going back to work tonight. Have been out Mon and Tues and I am freak'n blogging right now and I have to be there early to prep for the MBR, jeez...

Got hold of Paolo (Castillo) on chat right now. Wala lang.

Last night I dropped by to see Nho sa bday ng pamangkin nya. 1st Bday ng anak ni Bhoy and Lis, si Von. Went home to rest shortly after.

Pao and Ash were here for a visit for two fuck'n days.

Pao (Castillo) just messaged na gusto nya bumalik sakin.

Monday shift 20.04.2010

2010-04-19T23:18:00.000+08:00

Monday shift sana sa opisina pero hindi ako pumasok. Andito ako sa bahay at ang bagal ng internet connection. Globe tattoo ang salarin.

Saturday 10 April 2010

2010-04-10T04:47:00.001+08:00

May outing (swimming) ang Cainta Beki tropa pero wit akez jo-join. Strike muna.

Mamaya i-de-deliver yung glass ng dining set sa bahay. Pinagawa ko ito sa kababayan naming may shop sa Tikling kaya malamang andun ako sa kanila sa hapon tatambay at inuman na naman ang kahihinatnan nito.

Who Am I - Casting Crowns - maganda yung song, pang senti pero mas pang Amen Amen itoh. Ganun pa man, maganda...

Malapit na ang eleksyon, wala pa rin akong ticket pauwi sa amin. Matutuloy pa kaya ang eleksyon sa Mayo??? Baka masayang lang ang ticket ko at magka kudeta sa linggong ito, harharhar!

Miss ko na si Duztin, ang pinsan ng EX kong isip bata, hehehe, walang kwenta. After a month naming mag break saka ko lang na realize na wala pala syang kwenta, hahaha, loko lang. Mabalik tayo kay Duztin. Ginulat ako ni Duztin nun Lunes ng madaling araw habang ako'y naka tambay sa aming tambayan/tindahan at nagpasundo. Sa bahay sya natulog. Syempre alam mo na. Wika nga ng isa kong tropa, ano ba naman ang gagawin ng bakla at lalake pag magkasama, alangan namang magtitigan lang sila, di ba, hehehe. Ayun... Miss ko lang sya kase nawawala sya sa sirkulasyon ng buhay. Sana makasama ko ulet sya. Naalala ko tuloy nun nag meet kami. 2 days pa lang kami nun ni Jeff. Sa isip ko lang, bakit di kita nakilala agad, hahaha. Nahuli syang dumating. Kun damting lang sana sya ng mas maaga aga pa eh pinagbalakan ko na sana sya ng masama nuon pa, hahaha. Ganun pa man, nangyari na ang nangyari nun Lunes at na experience na rin nya for the first time kun pano makasama sa pagtulog ang bakla sa kama, bwahahaha. Sadyang malambing itong si Duztin kaya gusto ko sya. May kabaitan. Cute ngumiti. Yun nga lang sadyang maliit lang sya, datapwat hindi yung kanya, hahaha.

Nakakatawa.

Masaya.

Naalala ko rin tuloy si King. Pasensya na. Sa tagal kong di nag blog eh malamang alam nyo na na litanya ito. Sorry, my dear blog at ka-bloggerzz...

Si King naman ay dakila at nakilala ko nun Semana Santa. Anak ng Hapon. Anak ng, ang puti. Payat. Pero ang puti. Lumipas na ang isang linggo, ramdam ko pa rin sya sa aking kalamnan. Beware mga bakla. Baka mag enjoy ka ng todo, panalo sya!

Nag re-reklamo na ang empleyado ko sa paulit-ulit na pagtugtog ng "Who Am I" sa speakers ko. HAHAHAHA Pinalitan ko na ng Half Of My Heart ni John Mayer

Friday 03.26.2010

2010-03-26T10:49:00.000+08:00

There isn't a moment. There isn't a Luniversary.
New pics posted on several albums.
Long overdue but still worth keeping.
A lot of pictures from the past.

01 Feb 2010

2010-01-31T21:17:00.000+08:00

aaayyy ang tagal ko ng hindi naka pag blog!
Malapit na ang Valentines at Luniversary (more known as monthsary, coined from the word Lunar for months) namin ni bhie Jeff. San kaya ang aming moment?

In My Life

2009-11-05T14:02:00.000+08:00

Bago umuwi kanina nag malling kami ni Ash at dumaan kami sa Video City. Humiram sya ng In My Life. Many have raved comments about this flick and am interested. So while having lunch nanood kami. Indeed amazing nga yung film. It was something which we can relate with, moving, mabigat sa damdamin. There were light moments naman na medyo tatawa ka pero yung mga scenes na drama eh panalo talaga!

This is not your ordinary gay movie as it does not really tackle gay issues but of a mother-son relationship (ay halo na ring "friends" dyan). Pang pamilya eka nga.

Again, I rarely watch pinoy films/movies BUT this one is definitely good!

Ang sarap sanang makita na mas marami pang smooching scenes sina John Lloyd at Luis kasi mas nakakakilig at nakakadala sa mapusok kong damdamin, yun nga lang eh iisa lang...

I bet ang pag arte ni Luis/Lucky eh natural na natural dahil para sa akin ay bading sya! Feeling ko sasama sya sa kwadra ni Rustom years from now. Hindi ba't nabalitang silahis din naman ang kanyang ama? Hindi naman ako mosang sa showbiz, komento lang... I luv yah Luckeeeee... Lucky Me!

Naalala ko tuloy ng manood din ako ng isa pang flick ni John Lloyd (with Bea naman ito) ang One More Chance. Mega din ang iyak ng lola mo (kasi isa akong emosyonal na bakla) habang nanonood ako mag-isa sa kwarto at hindi ako nakapasok sa trabaho kinagabihan kasi napuyat ako kakaiyak, lolz.

Mabalik tayo sa In My Life. Sadyang marami ka nga namang mapupulot na scenes dito na makaka-relate ka kaya iiyak ka kasi hindi surreal ang mga tagpo sa pelikula. Mabigat man ito ay hindi lamang dahil sa magaling na pag-arte ng mga artista (si Vilma at John Lloyd lang ang tinutukoy ko dito) kundi dahil sa makatotohanan ito na malamang eh minsan sa iyong buhay ay naranasan mo na. Recommended na panoorin ng mga bading na tanggap na ng kanilang pamilya at baka mainggit lang ang mga kloseta sa harap ng kanilang mga pamilya.

Overall the movie was really wonderful only that we find that the death of Mark (Luis) was a disconnect on the whole movies plot though it paved the way to more dramatic scenes on the movie. Parang itinagpi lang yung death ni Mark sa pelikula upang mapagbigyan yung mga susunod na scenes which are heavy din. Sa kabila nito eh okay naman yung mga sumunod na scenes kasi magugulat ka sa pag babangayan nila Noel (John Lloyd) at Shirley (Vilma) kun saan sinapak, este, sinampal lang pala, ni Noel ang ina ng kanyang minamahal. Pero swak ang mga dayalogo! Magaling!

Sa haba man ng review ko, sa tingin ko eh kulang pa rin ngunit hanggang dito na lang muna. Panoorin nyo na lang at bumuo ng sarili nyong kuro-kuro ukol sa pelikula at mga isyu na dala nito.

ping test

2009-11-04T11:00:00.000+08:00

Ayan, manalig ka sa "bilis" ng SUN Broadband... bwakanang syet!

D - Concerning. Most online applications will not perform well but should function in some capacity. Try testing to other servers to verify the result. You might need to contact your ISP for help.

The Scorpion

2009-11-03T13:00:00.000+08:00

Scorpios are the most intense, profound, powerful characters in the zodiac. Even when they appear self-controlled and calm there is a seething intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. They are like the volcano not far under the surface of a calm sea, it may burst into eruption at any moment. But those of us who are particularly perceptive will be aware of the harnessed aggression, the immense forcefulness, magnetic intensity, and often strangely hypnotic personality under the tranquil, but watchful composure of Scorpio. In conventional social gatherings they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, and reserved, yet affable and courteous; they sometimes possess penetrating eyes which make their shyer companions feel naked and defenseless before them.

In their everyday behavior they give the appearance of being withdrawn from the center of activity, yet those who know them will recognize the watchfulness that is part of their character. They need great self-discipline, because they are able to recognize the qualities in themselves that make them different from other humans, and to know their utterly conventional natures can be used for great good, or great evil. Their tenacity and willpower are immense, their depth of character and passionate conviction overwhelming, yet they are deeply sensitive and easily moved by their emotions. Their sensitivity, together with a propensity for extreme likes and dislikes make them easily hurt, quick to detect insult or injury to themselves (often when none is intended) and easily aroused to ferocious anger. This may express itself in such destructive speech or action that they make lifelong enemies by their outspokenness, for they find it difficult not to be overly critical of anything or anyone to whom they take a dislike.

They can harness their abundant energy constructively, tempering their self-confidence with shrewdness and their ambition with magnanimity toward others provided they like them. They relate to fellow workers only as leaders and can be blunt to those they dislike to the point of cruelty. In fact they are not above expressing vindictiveness in deliberate cruelty. They are too demanding, too unforgiving of faults in others, perhaps because they are not aware of the shortcomings within themselves, and extravagantly express their self-disgust in unreasonable resentment against their fellows. They do, however, make excellent friends, provided that their companions do nothing to impugn the honor of which Scorpios are very jealous. Part of the negative side of the Scorpio nature is a tendency to discard friends once they cease to be useful, but the decent native is aware of, and fights this tendency.

They are fortunate in that their strong reasoning powers are tempered with imagination and intuition, and these gifts, together with critical perception and analytical capacity, can enable the Scorpions to penetrate to profundities beyond the average. They have a better chance of becoming geniuses than the natives of any other sign.But charismatic "twice-born" characters such as they can sink into the extremes of depravity if they take the wrong path, and the intensity of their nature exaggerates their harmful tendencies into vices far greater than the normal. Rebelliousness against all conventions, political extremism to the point where hatred of the Establishment makes them utterly unscrupulous terrorists. Brooding resentment, aggressive and sadistic brutality, total arrogance, morbid jealousy, extreme volatility of temperament, these are some of their vices. At the other extreme is the procrastinator, the man or woman who is capable of so much that they do nothing and become indolent and self-indulgent, requiring extravagant praise and flattery from those whom they make their cronies.

Being so gifted, they can find fulfillment in many employments. Their inner intensity can result in the ice-cold self-control and detachment of the surgeon, the concentration of the research scientist, and the heroism of the soldier. Any profession in which analysis, investigation, research, dealing with practicalities, and the solving of mysteries are relevant, can appeal to them. So police and detective work, espionage and counterespionage, the law, physics or psychology may attract them, and they can become masters of the written and spoken word. They may be most persuasive orators and find fulfillment as diplomats or preachers and, if they make the Church their profession, their inner intensity can express itself in the spiritual fervor of the mystic or the thaumaturgy.

Scorpio is the symbol of sex and Scorpios are passionate lovers, the most sensually energetic of all the signs. For them, union with the beloved is a sacrament, an "outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace." Their overriding urge in loving is to use their power to penetrate beyond themselves and to lose themselves sexually in their partners in an almost mystical ecstasy, thus discovering the meaning of that union which is greater than individuality, and is a marriage of the spirit as well as of flesh. They are thus capable of the greatest heights of passionate transport, but debauchery and perversion are always dangers, and Scorpios can become sadistic monsters of sensuality and eroticism. Their feelings are so intense that even when their love is of the highest, and most idealistic kind, they are nevertheless frequently protagonists in tragic, even violent romances, "star-crossed lovers."

11.03.2009

2009-11-03T05:13:00.001+08:00

I can't be any prouder of these people. Truly, they are amazing!
Miss International Queen 2009 held in Pattaya Beach Thailand!

Birthday weekend

2009-11-03T05:07:00.001+08:00

Oct 24 Nick arrived early in the afternoon here in Taguig to fetch me. We spent the whole afternoon and early evening at Ash' pad. After dinner at Market! Market! we headed home (Cainta). We then thought of formalizing our relationship. So- kami na, officialy, at this day, my birthday. We spent more hours together kasi hinatid pa nya ako pauwi sa bahay and he left shortly before midnight. My friends (Maya and Cielo) came to pick me up at home. Ayun, deretso sa tambayan and nomo ang mga beki til morning.

Oct 25 Around 1pm Nick was back and he woke me up from my slumber having drank a lot from last night. Ayun, magkasama na naman kami til late in the evening kasi nag simba pa kami sa Cainta church ng 8pm.

10.24.2009 It's mah birthday

2009-10-24T07:49:00.000+08:00

mah birthday

10.21.2009 - blag!

2009-10-21T05:19:00.000+08:00

kavlaaagggghhh!!! workaholic again... early to report to work last night and left late... need to accomplish a lot for my Samsung account (thus the status "Samsung keeps me alive") and the QAs scorecards...
Whew! Samsung does stir my blood!!!
Was really busy last night that even though I arrived early in the office I did not bother to text or call my "loved" ones, hehehe.
Sometimes, this is what I hate about being online, i.e. with internet connection, the more that I get attached to work coz I can remotely work... sigh...
Tamad na naman si baklang Ash pumasok at nag sakit-sakitan na naman ang gagah! Sabagay di ko na sya Qa kaya keber na! hahaha ke barbaridad! ke horror! nyahahaha
Antok na ako...
Pohtah kah bakla! Bumili ka na ng almusal! Bongga na naman ang pagtulog mo kagabi...
Tamo to at ayaw gumalaw sa kama... hmmmph!
On another note, nagtatanong na si Ash kun may pang handa na raw ba ako sa Sabado. The answer is- WALA!

10.15.2009 @ Ash' pad

2009-10-15T01:34:00.000+08:00

We are back online! Ash is now connected to the web via SUN Broadband. Unlimited surfing again! Web surfing is back! I have been stale for sometime since my PCs motherboard gave up on me. And now am back!!! B-A-C-Kkkkkkkk!

Chronic Urticaria - I have to get to bed early from work due to hives. I failed to get meds from the drugstore before it closed. Darn!

At 7pm last night I had to meet Mamma with my brothers for dinner. I was surprised that she was here, apparently for a seminar. Just a quick tete-a-tete...

Tuesday 09.22.2009

2009-09-22T14:15:00.000+08:00

I am herein Legaspi until the 28th. My officemates will follow on the 24th for vacation too!

Armand/Mark/Mr. Bean was with me last night... See you tonight again, bhe... mwah

Blog 08.29.2009

2009-08-29T05:23:00.000+08:00

Sabado na naman!!! Yes!!!
Sa wakas makaka rest na ulit ako!!! Wuhoo!!!
Hanggang ngayon kumukulo pa rin ang tiyan ko! Di ko alam kung bakit. Sabi ng Duktor sa Medical City eh wala naman daw parasites or bacteria. Pero bakit? Parang may tremors sa tiyan ko simula Lunes hanggang ngayon. Bakit?

Puno na naman ng kasiyahan ang weekend! Alam mo na... Boys... hehehehe
Malamang tatambay na naman ako sa aming tambayan sa Estrella at magkikita kita na naman ang mga beki at rarampa. Magkikita na ulit kami ni Maya.

Nag text si Harry kagabi. May ipapakilala daw syang pinsan nya. haaayyy... Mukha namang parasite lang yung lalake... pero tingnan natin... meet natin... kasi gwapo raw eh... hehehe

Sige... See ya!

Quick update for 08.07.2009

2009-08-07T08:44:00.000+08:00

Ngayon na lang ulet!!!
Am going home na...
bye

Weekend 03.31.2009

2009-05-31T11:58:00.000+08:00

We are here at Sikatuna BLISS with my family. Yam will celebrate her birthday today. She is now "i-don't-know, don't-ask" years old. She is a bit younger than I.

The weekend is still reminiscent of the past weeks when I have been seeing AJ and is friends very often. The heartache and frustration that meeting him has caused is still on the outskirts of my wary mind. Alain Joseph Cruz...

He didn't find time for us to talk anymore no matter how I have tried to make closure as smooth as I wanted it to be.

Shit happens for a reason. It's not really meant to be. And when shit happens, you know that someone is really a fuckin' shit biatch!

Weekend 04.25.2009

2009-04-25T08:27:00.001+08:00

It is weekend. Maui will have her College Grad ceremonies later today at the UP Film Center she said. I will meet her later.

The weekdays were really busy. Nine hours of being in the office is not enough. This is the sweldo week yet I do not have enough to go by. See previous blog to find out why. Plus, I just lost 1K last weekend. Twas stolen by some crook. As busy as the weekday has been, it has also been boy-toy-free. Was it just because I was tightening up my resources?

There are a lot of issues to tackle. There are a couple of shows I wanna talk about.

1. The heist over Ted Failon's wife is really news. I didn't like how QCPD behaved.

2. I have been watching American Idol (now you know why I arrive late when QTV 11 airs the replay on weekdays) and I love Chris!

3. The Abu Sayaff hostage crisis MUST end. Forces must be sent to annihilate these troops. No ransom ever to be given. Let life of 1 last hostage be endangered than the rest of the people of Sulu be terrorized. Annihilate these bandits! Kill them!

4. The price of gasoline is a roller coaster!

5. ET's 101 Best Kept Hollywood Secrets was not what I was expecting. I was hoping to learn "secrets." LOL

I am still here in the office. I am using office resources. I have to go home!

Holy Week 2009

2009-04-05T19:28:00.000+08:00

Wow, Holy Week is just a breath away. Am simply here in Cainta. My folks arrived and am about to spend a very busy holiday week with them. I will be out of office next week and getting my break from a very busy work life... whew!!!

Summer... Summer is here... I hate the glaring sun. I am looking forward to a hot spring resort in Laguna... That simple... Just that...

Will this be a break from boy toys too? Will see...

Wait and see...

On another note, we were at MAKRO yesterday and I bought stuff we needed at home--- mattress, pillows, an evaporative airconditioner and a TV set... I noticed that the evaporative airconditioner does really get its water evaporating but still far from being cold... The TV set was utterly nice as I laid eyes on its 29" screen. Wow... We didn't have this large a TV before!!!

Whew! Another whew!!! too much for spending and this holy week will be another!

March 14 - Bosay

2009-03-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

Was at Bosay Resort, Antipolo with Jay and Jaypee's friends. I met Buffi. Gwapo nga!!!

Rant: gwardya ba ito o yaya?

2009-01-31T06:29:00.000+08:00

Nasusuka na akong makita ang dalawang mag-jowa sa kapitbahay ko!!! Di ko alam kun yung babae eh gwardya ba o yaya!
At ang eskwelahan nya yata ay RSG University na!
Ateng, PERFECT, as in PERFECT ang attendance nya sa pagbabantay nya kay jowa!

Darating syang naka unipormeng pang eskwelahan sa RSG, magbibihis pang-katulong, at magbibihis estudyante ulet pagpauwi na. Obviously, hindi alam sa kanilang naglalandi sya. At pinagaaral siguro ang bilat na ito upang maglandi sa jowa nyang walang futuro!

Sya nga naman, hindi nga nya talaga madala ang kanyang jowa sa bahay nila dahil ito ay salat sa pinagaralan, ginawang drayber ng bayaw nya (taga hatid-sundo ng pamangkin nya, taga linis ng kotse), maitim na lumaki sa tabing dagat ng Alabat Quezon with coarse (or thick, I really don't know how to describe it, basta parang wala sa bokabularyo nya ang conditioner) hair ngunit matangkad at may hubog ang katawan. On a side note, maliit ang titi nya para sa height at built nya! Maalat pa minsan! Yun lang.

Ang laki ng selos ng babaitang ito sa aking kagandahan dahil nauna akong tumikim sa jowa nya, hahahaha! Ewan!

Nakakasulasok na sa mga mata ang pangitain!!!

Pwede ba umalis na kayo sa paningin ko!!!

Mga letse!

Holidays 2008

2009-01-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

This is waaayyy too late!!!

Highlights:

Dec 21 - Party @ my residence for my QA Team with Ines

Dec 25 - Warren and I met after 5 or so years. He was very drunk and you know what happened next...

Last Saturday of the year 2008 (Dec 27) - Tagaytay with Umai, Pola and friends. It was very windy and cold.

Last Sunday of the year 2008 (Dec 28) - with Chris (Tinog). You know what we did.

Jan 2 - back to Tagytay with family. Had lunch at Terriyaki Boy. Traffic was heavy.

Monday Mornings

2008-09-16T10:38:00.000+08:00

Monday morning breakfast with Mark was different. This time, I get to experience having breakfast with a man out of his pocket.

Few weeks back Dan spent his weekend over my place and we hanged-out in a bar. The shop owner was looking a lot better than the rest yet he's married and with a kid. Though looking good I have to pass. Not again.

A week or so after, he took my number...

And... yesterday morning he insisted on a breakfast with me.

And now, he's bugging me. Last night he asked how I was. He asked if he could sleep at home. He asked if we would go out again.

Man, are you crazy??? Cool as it may seem, man go back to your wife and kid!

Darn!

to my heartache

2008-09-14T07:10:00.000+08:00

I know that you are there. Yet you choose to ignore me. And I have to come realize when I saw your recent pics that it might not be you after all. You looked so handsome on your previous pics. I bet lately you have not been taking care of yourself that much., have you? Looks like you have lost weight and you have looked like an addict. Gain back the weight, just a bit. Your deep set eyes has failed to capture my heart lately. And I noticed that your lips are getting darker. Have you been smoking hard?

I wanna see you. I wanna be there.
But... If I do, will I fly into your heart too?

Will I see you?
Will you hug me when I see you?
Will you hold me tight in your arms and kiss me by then?
Will you?
Will you be you?

Doze off... Slip into dreams... Keep me closer... I love you...

Happy Birthday Lourds!

2008-09-10T16:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Lourds!

aaawww ouch moment?

2008-09-08T04:54:00.000+08:00

he shut-off the comments in friendster
why?
but
i like him
i was hurt
i feel frustrated again
he is simply adorable
how i wish i can love him
how i wish he'd feel the same
he is darn cute
he is like sooo my type
HE IS...
pohtah! bad trip!
yun lang
badtrip!
waaaaaa

Trip to Bataan

2008-08-31T23:12:00.001+08:00

Yes, I was there! We were there! Wanna see? We used two cameras, thus I have two sets for you. Bataan 1 Bataan 2

Dried Pusit

2008-08-11T12:02:00.000+08:00

My brother is coming back from his trip to Zamboanga this afternoon and I will be getting my dried pusit pasalubong!!! Oh yeah!!! Hell yeah!!! You heard me right, darn!!! Dried pusit! Yummy!!! Get it on!!! Talaaaappp!!!

Free Music Download

2008-08-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

Want some free music download? Check this out, my recent find--- AmpMode.com

Happy Slip

2008-08-10T23:24:00.000+08:00

I am recently hooked into Happy Slip (http://www.happyslip.com). I have been watching video clips over the weekday til weekend. Jhing told me about this site. Right after landing on its page I was caught by her videos of her trip to the Philippines. It was very well done. She speaks damn well. She is funny. It was just touching. Christine Gambito (a.k.a. HappySlip) was born in the US by her Filipino parents and was here when she was 1 year old. Not until recently Dept. of Tourism invited her to tour the Philippines. She has a very strong attachment to her filipino blood and ancestry.

Sunday: Movies I watched today

2008-08-03T09:04:00.000+08:00

The Love Guru--- it's not that entertaining or hilarious.... Just so-so... The guru in this movie was trying to settle the romantic trouble of a hockey player. And what can I say, I like this hockey player! I find him so appealing! Hit me baby!
Watch it here.

Made of Honor--- this is great! Very romantic! Would wanna fall in-love again! A guy trying to win his engaged best friend! And yeah, Scotland looks so classic to live in! Wonderful.
You can follow this link

Night out with SAA schoolmates

2008-08-03T08:55:00.000+08:00

Enrique (Iking) invited me last night to meet our former schoolmates (his friends and my soon-to-be friends) from SAA. We were batchmates. Had to leave SAA after elementary grades and move to another high school. Glad to have seen matured faces whom I have not for almost 16 years now. They all look different! Well..... kind-a... Eumir Buban though is still Eumer. Only that he looks like a dad now. He doesn't have any kids yet. I also met Jaime Vargas (joined when they were high school).

It was raining though!

I followed late at night to where they are at Pioneer and drove all the way from Mandaluyong to Parañaque to drop by AirForce 1. But hell that KTV wasn't for us. Owen, Eric Codornis and Manuel were left there and we had to go back to QC. Richard Galang, Enrique, Emerson Guazon, Mary Ann Balin, Jessica (came to SAA high school so we haven't been together) and I went to Jay-J's around Metrowalk.

Last night I met Rea and Lourds too!

Left 5:30am and got home 6am. Couldn't sleep that much. Had to watch some movies online!

Randy Pausch Last Lecture: Achieving Your Childhood Dreams

2008-07-13T08:41:00.000+08:00

Carnegie Mellon Professor Randy Pausch, who is dying from pancreatic cancer, gave his last lecture at the university Sept. 18, 2007, before a packed McConomy Auditorium. In his moving talk, "Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams," Pausch talked about his lessons learned and gave advice to students on how to achieve their own career and personal goals. For more, visit www.cmu.edu/randyslecture.

"Journeys" are special University Lectures in which Carnegie Mellon faculty members share their reflections on their journeys -- the everyday actions, decisions, challenges and joys that make a life.

Randy Pausch Lecture: Time Management

2008-07-13T08:34:00.000+08:00

POWER Windows!

2008-06-07T20:06:00.000+08:00

The horror of having the car with a power window has began. The assembly on my side has stopped responding and I just couldn't leave the car! For some weird thing it just wouldn't move anymore.
To the rescue were my friends from the office-- Chris, Mary, Powie and Ines.

Oh by the way, I guess Ines went to see me not because of the stalled window but to show her new hair cut done by this Japanese hair stylist which she said she and Mickey will go to.

Anyway, so there it was. This morning I filed for insolvency because I had it fixed and had an alarm system installed.

Now the alarm is something that is complicated for me and I couldn't understand its science. The manual was hard to understand because I cannot figure out where the words are coming from. But I will figure out soon.

HONDA CITY

2008-06-01T23:25:00.001+08:00

Got myself a HONDA CITY today.
Too tired and lazy to blog about it!
Heck!
hahaha
**I would like to thank my friends, Chinky and Eric, for all their time, hard work, stress and passion in accompanying me in search of this car. To you Chinky and Eric- THANK YOU!

MULTIPLY - mobile version

2008-05-04T13:40:00.000+08:00

My PC's hard drive crashed. Was producing some sound while spinning. To blame my brother for being so stubborn and hooked to his online or whatevah games!
Am using my mobile to browse some WAP sites via GPRS. Found that MULTIPLY is one of those.
Cool, that's about it!

Kevin was here

2008-04-27T08:59:00.000+08:00

Kevin was here! We spent the whole afternoon together. I came right from work and he travelled all the way from Sta. Mesa where he's staying while reviewing for the Nursing Board. I slept after he left at about 7pm. Geez I was up for more than I could. Kev was funny to be with. He's jolly. We kidded a lot.

On a Saturday morning I had my Six Sigma Certification exam. God I hope to ACE it. No less than 100%.

Movies Watched 04.12.2008

2008-04-12T21:33:00.000+08:00

Horton Hears a Who
HHW Part 1
HHW Part 2
HHW Part 3

Superhero Movie
Superhero Part 1
Superhero Part 2
Superhero Part 3

Juno

Watch Juno here

All these courtesy of Movie6.net

my new toy

2008-03-31T08:56:00.000+08:00

eSnips

2008-03-31T06:08:00.000+08:00

I stored some of the movies I have downloaded and watched here. Check it out!

An Inconvenient Truth (Al Gore talks about Global Warming)

2008-03-26T15:55:00.000+08:00

***I urge you all to blog about, post, talk about, share, simply act on this. Watch it. It is a great clip to think of.***

Director Davis Guggenheim eloquently weaves the science of global warming with Mr. Gore’s personal history and lifelong commitment to reversing the effects of global climate change. A longtime advocate for the environment, Gore presents a wide array of facts and information in a thoughtful and compelling way. “Al Gore strips his presentations of politics, laying out the facts for the audience to draw their own conclusions in a charming, funny and engaging style, and by the end has everyone on the edge of their seats, gripped by his haunting message,” said Guggenheim. An Inconvenient Truth is not a story of despair but rather a rallying cry to protect the one earth we all share. “It is now clear that we face a deepening global climate crisis that requires us to act boldly, quickly, and wisely.”

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Alvin and the Chipmunks

2008-03-26T13:09:00.000+08:00

In a tree farm, three musically inclined chipmunks, Alvin, Simon and Theodore, find their tree cut down and sent to Los Angeles. Once there, they meet the frustrated songwriter David Seville, and despite a poor house wrecking first impression, they impress him with their singing talent. Seeing the opportunity for success, both human and chipmunks make a pact for them to sing his songs. While that ambition proves a frustrating struggle with the difficult trio, the dream does come true after all. However, that success presents its own trials as their unscrupulous record executive, Ian Hawke, plans to break up this family to exploit the boys. Can Dave and the Chipmunks discover what they really value amid the superficial glamor around them?

WATCH MOVIE

After Sex

2008-03-25T14:40:00.000+08:00

AFTER SEX is an edgy relationship comedy that uses sex as a background to examine intimacy and vulnerability. It’s a humorous, yet honest look at the complexity of modern day relationships told through nine separate couples. Through witty dialogue and compromising situations, the film takes us from the beginning of a relationship to the aftermath of one, and examines every stage in between while somehow finding humor within the drama, heartache and confusion of it all. What is learned about human emotions and vulnerability is enlightening and entertainingly sexy and fun.

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88 Minutes

2008-03-24T18:18:00.000+08:00

In Seattle, the successful forensic psychiatrist and college professor Jack Gramm is in evidence since he was responsible for the condemnation of the serial killer Jon Forster, influencing the jury to sentence him to the death row. Jon accuses Jack of manipulation, inducing one witness and sister of one of his victims to testify against him. On the eve of Jon’s execution, Jack receives a phone call telling him that he has only eighty-eight minutes of life, while a killer is copycatting Jon, killing women with the same “modus-operandi” and is investigated by Seattle Slayer Task Force. With the support of his former wife and associated Shelly Barnes, the FBI agent and his friend Frank Parks and his assistant Kim Cummings, Jack investigate some weird and problematic students, a security guard of the campus and the woman with whom he had one night stand.

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Justice League Movie 2008

2008-03-24T15:16:00.000+08:00

Justice League: The New Frontier
Adapting the award-winning DC Comics miniseries DC: THE NEW FRONTIER by Darwyn Cooke, Justice League: The New Frontier spins a tale of the DC Universe in the 1950s, focusing on test pilot Hal Jordan (Green Lantern) and the Martian Manhunter. The story also features other DC characters, including Barry Allen (the Flash), Superman, Wonder Woman, Batman, and many more.

Watch this movie. I just did.

Holy Week 2008

2008-03-24T09:56:00.000+08:00

Holy Week 2008 pictures here.
Will blog about it next time or when I feel like talking about it.

Bad Company

2008-03-17T10:06:00.000+08:00

Another movie to watch: BAD COMPANY with Chris Rock. Stream it here. Hope it remains available for some time 'til you get to this blog/page.

Vantage Point

2008-03-17T10:00:00.000+08:00

One of the movies I watched over the weekend was Vantage Point.

With a Rashomon narrative style, the attempted assassination of the president is told from five different perspectives. In Spain to give a speech announcing an anti-terrorism initiative, the U. S. President (William Hurt) is apparently shot. The action tracks Secret Service agent Thomas Barnes (Dennis Quaid) as he deals with the chaos following the shooting. We see the event first through the eyes of the television news director (Sigourney Weaver), then the scenes rewind and we see it again from several different perspectives.

Great movie to watch too!

Again, found it at Moviesniffing. Click on one of the links on the page to stream the movie.

Meet The Spartans

2008-03-17T09:54:00.000+08:00

The heroic Leonidas, armed with nothing but leather underwear and a cape, leads a ragtag group of 13–count ‘em, 13!–Spartans to defend their homeland against the invading Persians (whose ranks include Ghost Rider, Rocky Balboa, the Transformers, and a hunchbacked Paris Hilton–no one is safe when the Spartans take on the biggest icons in pop culture).
Found this movie at moviesniffing. The link that I used to stream the movie is here. Watch it! Enjoy! And melt your heart out!

3 Pigs and a BABY

2008-03-16T09:40:00.001+08:00

Another feel-good movie. This is for kids though. So for those young at heart, here's one for us!

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BEWARE: SMART *888 Customer Care

2008-03-16T01:13:00.000+08:00

I have called SMART's Hotline too rarely. In those few occasions I have compared the service I received from SMART and GLOBE. So far, SMART's Customer Care is the WORST, ever! Wait time is horrible, for one. Add to that the atrocity that the persons answering your calls give. Damn! Not only do they lack english skills but they also lack the information that you need! They would answer rhetorically. Apart from that these people really have attitudes! They don't know how to handle calls. Imagine one Rep telling me to properly use the phone or else they would drop the call and the moment I said "Excuse me" after that was thin air! Voila! She was gone! They are really horrible as monsters and very atrocious! I almost have my calls dropped the moment I speak English and ask them to repeat what they have just said due to poor grammar. They make me sick and nose-bleed! I tell you... Before you call this *888 number with your mobile phone get a glass of water, turn your air conditioning to the max, grab a pain reliever or worse something for the heart. Think more than twice! I am warning you!

Alicia Silverstone

2008-03-15T13:28:00.000+08:00

Alicia Silverstone’s Sexy Veggie PSA
Order a FREE vegetarian starter kit at GoVeg.com

Dr. Dolittle: Tail To The Chief

2008-03-02T17:47:00.000+08:00

Maya Dolittle, who can talk to animals like her father, is placed on special assignment by the President of the United States of America. Dr. Dolittle: Tail To The Chief is a 2008 American comedy film, starring Kyla Pratt. The movie tells us not to give up, that failures are a part of success and what is important is what we do with the failures after it happens.
"Keep swinging!"
"We have nothing to fear but fear itself."
"Failure is a part of life even for successful people. The trick is, what are you gonna do about the failure? Are you gonna quit or are you gonna keep on swingin'?"

Panagbenga 2008

2008-03-02T03:31:00.000+08:00

I swear I had no idea when I said YES to the trip to Baguio that it was for Panagbenga 2008, much to my surprise! Just in time with the Nursing Board's release. While having my feet done Ate was overjoyed with the results of the exam. She passed the board, finally! And so I oferred to treat her to Baguio City. I was going there anyway and travelling single. *Without much ado, Paul, She, Ate and I went to Baguio Friday afternoon (Feb 22) via the 2pm Victory Liner trip. The travel was a bit gruesome at 7 hrs arriving Baguio at past 9pm. My back ached! It was biting cold. Yes, the gush of wind was seeping through my bones, trembling. My thin frame was shaking and looking for the warmth of another human. *We stopped at Mocha Blends to have coffee while waiting for the ride to Paul's house. To my surprise someone called Pau saying that there was a dare for a meet-and-greet thing. Pau's "Boo" was there too! Another boylet in the making! Pau's place was a 15-20 minute drive away from town. The place is called IRISAN. *Noteworthy was Pau's handsome teen-age brother Tadj. I didn't have his pic though. Bad. Sinalubong nya si "ate." How sweet. I fell inlove. Love-at-first-sight. *We went out the following day, Saturday, and watched the Parade. I ate strawberry taho to which I suspected as the culprit for my sore throat that lasted until I arrived Manila without any relief. Same day we went to Strawberry Farm. The vendors know how to appease customers. Ako nga binola na nagpa-rebond eh! The stalls are right along the way and the items from all sorts are cheap. Of course, all Baguio. *Wasn't really feeling well any longer. Had to buy medicines and gargle too often. Drink lotsa water. Until the following day came I had to shift medicines to antihistamine for my Allergic Rhinitis. Until I arrived Manila not feeling relieved at all. I had my Doctor's call this morning. We shifted to another medicine. *Anyway, we also stopped at SM Baguio (the loft area was great). Dined at ZOLA. Had the chance to eat at a posh Japanese Resto (Emperor's Court, parang kainan sa loob ng motel). Drank at Ala Carte Grill and Bar. Sang at Red Lion (Legarda). Filled our tanks at CALTEX Cafe.
*At Red Lion the room was co-occupied by screaming mommas! They were wild like Pros. Old as they look. Pero maasim.
*My savings ATM Card was lost. So I ran into a dilemma of cash shortage and had to resort to choosing places to dine and unwind that accepts the credit card. While Ate was a victim of pick-pocket loosing her MENTOS, hahaha. *Pau was unbelievable. He had 2 men going gaggah over HIM. Samantalang nilangaw ang beauty ko. HE was too busy with HIS men that we barely had time to rampa! Unlike Juno who has a world of his own, I am not crazy! Ask Pau about Mokz and Jojit. See the pics! Grabe! Pinagaagawan sya ng isang PILAY at isang BI. May rhyme pa! *We missed watching the floral parade coz (1) they were busy drinking the night before until early morning ( I went home ahead to rest) and (2) it was raining! Oh we have been drinking every night pala. And they were drinking heavily. I had to rest. *The weather was really cold! Imagine fog at ground zero during noon!
*Baguio was simply CROWDED specially Session Rd. Seem like Baguio was so small that it was ONLY Session Rd that people know of.
*Taking panoramic pictures is one of the best things you can do in Baguio. I just didn't have the right camera for that though and barely had training on how to get these pictures with the right exposures.
*Before leaving they served Pinekpekan, hahaha. Kidding. Don't know how they spell it!
*Leg room of the bus going back to Manila was cramped. Seats were closer compared to the previous bus but the ride was faster at 5 hrs.

One More Chance

2008-02-12T01:30:00.000+08:00

I rarely watch pinoy flicks but this darn movie as recommended by Riza made me cry!!!
The hopeless romantic that I am...
I have been crying for almost 3/4 (or more) of the showtime of this movie.
I don't have sleep from work yet!
It has caused my headache for which I am not mad about!
Coz this damn movie is one hell of a shit for making me cry all the while!

One More Chance!!!

Feb 9, Saturday fever

2008-02-10T17:23:00.001+08:00

I opened an HSBC Classic account with HSBC Savings Bank in Valle Verde. At the same time I requested for an HSBC Classic VISA Card. This is a secured credit card. How it works is like I have a guaranteed amount with the bank. Eighty percent (80%) of my savings amount is my credit limit. That said the approval was very fast. I opened the account on a Thursday noon and the courier was at our doorsteps Sunday morning with the VISA Card.

Yesterday, Riza, Troy and I went to Southmall to attend Georgia's kid's christening. The flux at SLEX was unnerving that we didn't make it to church. And so we headed to SM Southmall and had merienda at Barrio Fiesta (the reception).

Oh boy, Troy's new card is grand and dazzling! Geez! I wanna have my own! Darn! He's rich while I can barely breath! hahahaha
By the way, talking about Troy, he is still obstreperous and boisterous!

Before going home Riza and I dropped by TIMEX (Southmall) and claimed the DUNLOP Sens 1 watch that came free with the HSBC VISA Card.

Arriving at Cainta, I have to drop by the supermarket to swipe the card. I mean to buy some house supplies. I was so tired upon getting home. I felt dizzy upon waking up and so I thought I was pregnant only for me to remember that I barely ate last night!
I have been looking for images of these cards online coz I do not have a scanner but I am finding it hard! I love how the HSBC cards look like. They're striking!

** I am eating oatmeal chocolate chip cookies and polvoron now from a stall in Banchetto **

40 Days: + Jay Russell B. Arjona +

2008-02-04T17:09:00.000+08:00

Dec 25 to Feb 4, 2008

Suddenly I began to count... Realized, 40 days... It has been 40 days since his demise from my life. I remember looking at the calendar months back with the same thought, it has been 40 days since we were together. It has been 40 days of agonizing pain. A day more and I have surpassed the 40 days of Christ's passion. I have weathered the emotions. And now, looking back at those more than 40 days is alleviating.

You guys know who you are. Thank you for absorbing all the anguish that I had. I am so grateful for the support and the long talks that we had. For listening to the sunny moments of this fairytale romance up to its stormy end. Relationships has taught me to endure, made me rich in flavor and be robust. We love and yet again we love though we know it might hurt. As mortals, pain is part of life. We sacrifice because we wanted to cherish a lasting relationship. Until we can no more. We never forget the ones we love. Yes, I still love him and I always will.

I would like to appreciate ALL those who have played an active role in my life since I decided to end it. It has been a journey of life and so we MUST go on.

uTorrent Download

2008-02-04T14:10:00.000+08:00

I was downloading the recent episode of Smallville (Season 7 Episode 10) few minutes ago. I was sooo thrilled. Oh boy, the download was very fast (compared to my previous download experiences). I have been using SMART Bro and my download speed never got this better! Imagine I used to have about 40kbps... And when I checked my client was hungry for bandwidth at over 250kbps! And so I added the latest episode of Heroes (Season 2 Episode 11). It got even better at over 300kbps! Probably because there were many seeds and leechers. So whenever the episodes are released I really have to grab them fast coz the seeds and leechers are peaking at 1,000 plus! This might have made it faster. Cool

But oh boy! Downloading was never this fun before!

Gotta watch the episodes muna! See yah later!

Why Don't Men Talk Like Women Do?

2008-02-03T03:21:00.000+08:00

By David Zinczenko From his book, "Men, Love & Sex: The Complete User's Guide for Women"

Here's a great irony: Men, in general, are happy in their relationships. And yet women -- the very people responsible for making guys so happy -- spend a great deal of time fretting over whether their men want to stay in the relationship or are waiting to catch the next bus out of it. Indeed, women spend so much time fretting that they often ask men to talk more about ... gasp! ... their feelings. And the one thing that can make a contented guy discontented is being asked to talk about his feelings. It's like cooking up a great souffle, and then opening the oven to check on it -- and presto, the souffle goes flat.

It's not that you should never ask a man about his feelings. But it's all about technique: you need to coax him to that place where he can share; pushing him just makes him stubborn.

Don't use the f-word

The problem for a lot of guys is that talking feelings with a woman is like talking French with a native Parisian. No matter how hard we study, we'll never master the language with quite the same fluency. So you need to make things a little simpler for us.

From our end, we'd prefer that you don't directly ask about the "f-word" -- feelings. Say the word feelings to a man and it's like clipping your toenails during a striptease -- total turn-off. The reason? We have feelings, but we don't have the access to them that you do. So every conversation that's pointedly about our feelings seems to us like the last 15 minutes of "Law & Order," where we're the perp and you're the clever detective, poking a finger in our face and hinting that you know just a little more than we do. And you do know a little more than we do. You know how you feel. And we don't know how we feel. So if you want us to talk, then help us speak your language -- by speaking a little of ours.

The point: If you want us to answer questions about what we're feeling, then stop asking about how we're feeling. Instead, watch how we behave, and where our interests lie. And be open about your feelings. The more you show comfort in expressing yourself, the more he'll do the same.

How do I know where the relationship is going?

I feel like I've hit a snag in a relationship with my boyfriend. We've been seeing each other for a few months. Everything was really great in the beginning. Now, it seems like we've fallen into that typical relationship routine. We see each other during the week, rent a movie on Fridays, and usually have sex twice a week (once after the movie). He's nice to me and treats me well, but I'd like to get things back to where they were. He tells me everything's fine, assures me he cares about me, and tells me not to worry about it. But I still do because what he says is one thing but what happens week to week is another. Any idea what he's thinking?

Yeah. He's thinking exactly what he's saying, which is that everything's fine. "Women think that not talking about the relationship means there are problems, but it's the opposite for men. If we're not talking about it, it means we're happy," says Conner, 32. So the real question is not "What's he thinking?" It's "What are you thinking?" If you're content with the relationship you've got, then relax and enjoy it. And if you want more, say so. "If a man loves a woman, he'll prove it with daily action not just words," says Jimmy, 27. Either he'll step up to the plate, or what he's giving now is all he's got -- and maybe you need to move on.

Why don't guys answer emotional questions?

I've got a good friend who recently left her husband. They have one child who's eight, and my friend and her ex are now in this bitter disagreement about custody, about money, about who gets to see the daughter when. When I told my husband about it, I asked him how he felt about it, because these are really serious issues, and I figured he'd have really serious thoughts on them. Instead, he just sat there, shrugged his shoulders, and said, "That sucks." Does the man have no feelings?

Of course he has feelings, and he told you what they were: He feels the situation sucks. Oh, but wait ... you were looking for something more. Here's the problem: You wanted him to tune into your concerns, but the signal you were sending was fuzzier than a pirate radio station. It's the old "feelings" conundrum again. If you want to ask him how he'd handle a custody issue, then ask him how he'd handle a custody issue. If you want to know if he thinks it's wrong for one partner to give up on a marriage, then ask him about that. But don't ask him about his feelings and expect him to surmise that your telling him a story about the neighbors is some Aesop's fable for your relationship. "We're simple. Please, no hints or assumptions," says D.J., 26. "Say what you mean, mean what you say. Don't make us guess as if we know what you are trying to say or feel."

D.J.'s a bit of a wishful thinker. Just as men like direct, problem A/solution B equations, women seem to take a more poetic and metaphorical approach to communication. That's why communication between the sexes is so much work. To men, dealing with hypotheticals is fun when we're talking about pennant races and the stock market, not when you're asking us to project how we'd feel about anything really serious, like a breakup or infidelity or pizza toppings. In that case, direct questions will get you the answers you want: let's stay together, I'll be faithful forever, and no anchovies, please.

Why can't a guy just plan out our future?

My husband and I have two kids, a boy and a girl, ages three and six. I'm tired of taking the pill, so I've tried talking to my husband about other options. Specifically, I asked him if he wanted more kids. (I could go either way.) And if he didn't, then we should talk about a vasectomy. But he can't decide whether he wants more children, and he doesn't seem too thrilled with the idea of getting the vasectomy. Why doesn't he just tell me what he wants so then we can come up with some kind of game plan?

Your question contains this interesting phrase: "I could go either way." It sounds like you and your husband are both comfortable in a pair of flip-flops. In our polls and surveys, we've asked men about the vasectomy issue. John, 41, has been talking about a vasectomy with his wife, but they're having trouble getting at the root of who really wants to do what. "Neither of us will come right out and say we're done having kids. She thinks me not signing right up for the operation somehow means that I have this evil master plan: that if I dump her, I'll be able to have kids with some 22-year-old bimbo. But I just don't want to get one, because neither of us have closed the door on having kids, and if she's up for it, I'm up for it."

The fact is that men hate admitting that they don't have a plan, and with complex issues like this, it's hard for a guy to decide, unilaterally, the rest of both your lives. He's going to flip and flop like a beached sea bass until he knows for certain. And then, one day, he's just going to announce his decision.I know, it's hard living with us. Just don't try living without us.

Masculinity mastered: what you now know about men

"Feelings" is our f-word. Bleep it out of your conversational repertoire. Try pointed questions like "What do you think about...."
We feel everything's okay when we're not talking about feelings. When we're talking about feelings, we feel everything's on the rocks.
Backed into a corner, we won't let you into our heads. Give us some space and we'll let you in.

Say this tonight!

The sexiest thing a woman ever said to Dale, 32: "What would you like for breakfast?"
The sexiest thing Tricia, 28, ever said to a man: "I wish I could have you."

Say this, not that!

Say this: "What do you think about that?"
Not: "How do you feel about that?"
Because: He knows how to answer the first question, but the second one makes him nervous.

Say this: "I wish I could say this in a way that makes more sense to you."
Not: "You don't understand me."
Because: Miscommunication is a two-way street.

Say this: "Let's go for a drive."
Not: "Let's sit down and talk."
Because: Men are less tense when they're doing something physical.

Say anything: Once
Not: Ten times
Because: To a guy, repetition makes a statement meaningless.

What it means when....

He says, "I love you" for the first time (not during sex).
He does. And he thought it long before he ever said it.

He says, "Fine," in response to a question about how his day was.
Fine. If something significant happened, he'll tell you -- in a few hours.

He says, "Five," when you ask him how many women he's slept with.
Twelve.

Wondering woman

Why is it so hard for guys to write a personal message in a birthday card? Every year all I get is "Love, Jim." Five minutes on the way back from the drugstore doesn't give a whole lot of time to come up with something clever. Plus, he'd rather let a nice dinner and a show do the talking for him.

Male mysteries

27: Percentage of men who say they primarily fight with their wives or girlfriends about the fact that they don't share or talk about their feelings.
65: Percentage of men who don't want their partners to ask more questions about them.

Excerpted by permission from "Men, Love and Sex, The Complete User's Guide for Women" by David Zinczenko with Ted Spiker; Rodale, 2006

David Zinczenko is editor in chief of Men's Health and editorial director of the new magazine Best Life, a magazine for affluent, 40-plus men. He co-wrote The New York Times bestseller the "The Abs Diet," and "Men, Love & Sex: The Complete User's Guide for Women," which offers up hundreds of insights on how men think, feel, and behave. Look for David's Yahoo! Health blog where he explores anything and everything that has to do with men, women, sex, and relationships.

First week at Harte-Hanks

2008-02-02T01:44:00.000+08:00

One word: BUSY
Synonym: HECTIC
Description:
The work area is enclosed. You see no windows. You don't see the outside world. You have no view of a sunrise or a sunset. You barely feel that you have to eat. There's alotta food! You barely notice that you have to go home. Work. Work. Work. With open internet access I wasn't able to BLOG at all. There is no MSN IM and YM. The Lotus Notes Mail is better than the TELUS/Amber Webmail. I am surrounded by men! I did not get to see my friends. I barely talked to them. I received an escalation. I have to let go of a QA (downsize). Told that I only have 1 QA for a single account with 3 LOBs and about 30 agents. Goodluck!

The worst, NO OUTGOING Phone Calls like I used to!

USE

2008-01-29T13:04:00.000+08:00

When one tells you via SMS that you are USELESS how would you retort?
Why would they text you on the first place if you were USELESS?
And if you were USEFUL would that not make them a USER?

user
noun
1.	a person who makes use of a thing; someone who uses or employs something
2.	a person who uses something or someone selfishly or unethically [syn: exploiter]
3.	a person who takes drugs [syn: drug user]

American Psychological Association (APA):

user. (n.d.). WordNet® 3.0. Retrieved January 29, 2008, from Dictionary.com website: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/user

GAY CHRONICLES

2008-01-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

I came across the following blogs worth sharing related to my previous thoughts on Gay relationships as appended on my post FRIDAY MADNESS.

Found on these pages are links to related posts. So basically these are like networks of posts on the issue. Read on. Be educated. Be entertained. I was. I was touched...

I am not done reading yet...

Kowtable Kowts

2008-01-27T17:38:00.000+08:00

We go through life thinking someone else will make us happy. But we're wrong. Happiness is our job. We just need someone else to share it with.
~Diana
.i.LOVE.you.RALPH. (repeated 8 times)
~Cesar
I am wanted by many
I am looking at some
I am taken by none
But I am waiting for one
~Troy
hmmm.. I wish you were mine
~Cesar
.wala. i like you lang.
~Cesar
.seriously. i think im starting to fall for you
~Cesar
A Little Girl's Prayer:
Dear Lord,
Please send clothes for the poor women who don't even have bra and panties in my kuya's magazine.
Amen.
~Jay (my brother)
.i dunno. bsta everytime i read your messages my heart beats so fast e
~Cesar
When I think about what love has brought me I remember the times that my only refugee was alcohol. It helped me forget about my pain and my misery. I forgot about the person I have given the power to hurt me. Experience has taught me to be wise and I keep with me one hard earned lesson amidst my drunken stupor--- giving too much of myself to somebody is almost the same as suicide.
~Diana
When I was in Grade school my teacher told me to write what I wanted to be when I grow up. I wrote "HAPPY." She told me I didn't understand the assignment. I told her she didn't understand life.
~George
Don't make the same mistake twice. Marami pang kasalanan jan, try mo yung iba.
~Troy
It's better to enjoy life committing MISTAKES and LEARN rather than PLAYING SAFE in your entire life and learned NOTHING at all.
~Troy
If only words were that easy to speak. If only wounds heal in a matter of seconds. Then, maybe, falling won't hurt like hell and loving won't sound stupid.
~Troy
Define COMPLICATED. It's when you don't know where you stand in a person's life;
It's when you're hanging in dead air and knowing you can be thrown off anytime;
It's when you're like more than friends but not really and;
It's like you're lovers when it's really otherwise.
Sometimes you would want to wish to have never met the person at all but at the back of your mind you're thankful you have.
~Troy

Split personality

2008-01-27T16:56:00.000+08:00

Female persona:

The craze on my SMART mobile has gone down since Kevin and I last night had disagreement over certain issues. He said that he cancelled sending his pic to my email coz he was unsure if I were being true to him or not and that he doesn't know me at all and wanted to be "safe." And so we're back to the old topic of him coming over and pressuring me to go home just to see me. Kevin has been behaving so childish. He simply is my textmate anyway. And he really is young. He is acting so feminine. So I quit.

Male persona:

Cesar - this kid from *censored* website lives just nearby (Greenland) and was keeping my GLOBE mobile alive with his messages day-in and day-out. So leaving Kevin silent on the other phone was okay. He just came from a break-up and was so early on the rebound. As a kid he has admitted to missing then liking then eventually falling in-love with me much like an instant coffee. I don't care if he's young (in fact very young), it's merely a get-away anyway. What I liked was his intelligent thoughts on matters that we talk about. He makes sense. It means that I can talk about something and he genuinely understands. We are running at almost the same wavelength. My intelligence is not stupefied and challenged. Apart from this he simply is adorably sweet.

Breakup scene

2008-01-27T04:11:00.001+08:00

It's a familiar story -- the two of you meet, become inseparable and fall in love...but then the tables turn and one of you wants out.

This person is now out of your life. Period. DO NOT, repeat, DO NOT, call your ex. It's like Chutes and Ladders. One call and you're back at the bottom again. We're all weak-willed, particularly when it comes to people who've broken our hearts. You need to get serious about this. Missing your ex is one thing. Contacting your ex is a no-no. In fact, reconnecting with your ex is the absolute worst thing you can do right now.

Life is short. Make it good for you. Is there something you've always wanted to try but haven't?

Get back in the saddle. Avoid super-quick rebounds, but don't make excuses for not getting out there and meeting new people. Not every coffee date needs to be "the one."

After a breakup, it's all too easy to second-guess yourself and your choices. Did I do the right thing? Should I have given him/her another chance? Maybe there was more I could do to make it work... The truth is, you can make yourself crazy second-guessing your decision. But what's done is done. You had your reasons, made your decision, and now it's time to accept and move on.

You may not know it right now, but in ending your relationship with the wrong person, you're paving the way to meet the right one. Chances are good that you won't meet Mr. or Ms. Right overnight, but that doesn't mean the breakup was a bad decision. By walking away from that wrong relationship, you're headed towards a life that's more honest and authentic for you. What better way to eventually attract your perfect partner than by living and loving your own life?

Forget About Being Friends. Anything that has the word "friend" in it, forget about. "Friends with benefits," "Just friends" -- just say "No." It's hard to move on when you are still keeping one foot in the past. It's time to rely on your other friends for support and get out there and make new friends. You won't be as quick to accept an invite to a party or call an old high school friend if you are busy with your ex.

When a relationship is over, it's easier to think of the good times as opposed to the bad times. The annoying habits and bad character traits seem to recede into the background. All you can think about is the great chemistry and the fun Saturday nights you had going out to your fave Italian restaurant together.
What you're doing is idealizing the relationship now that it's gone. You're turning it into some blockbuster movie romance when at best it was a B movie with mixed reviews. Start looking at it with more objectivity. Remind yourself of the fights you had and the frustration you felt.

When you are hurting after a breakup, it's easy to tell yourself, "I'll never meet anyone this fabulous again" or "I'll never find anyone." But the reality is, you WILL meet someone and, eventually, you will wind up in a better relationship. If this one was healthy and meant to be, you wouldn't be broken up. If you maintain hope and don't give into the hurt, you can pursue and find what you are looking for.

Friday madness

2008-01-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

Thet (Patrick) and I were texting this evening about Jay, my estranged, fictitious, begrudging, morose, rancorous and sardonic boyfriend, and he was sharing his virulent feelings about him. And so we have shared whatever stories we had on how we knew Jay and it seems like we know him of the same contumacious persona. Well, GOD knows whoever he is and whatever tumultuous wrath he has brought to mankind and I no longer care whatever hostile shit he does! It was kind-a strange though coz Thet was Jay's buddy and it is idiosyncratic that we were talking about this "mad stranger" in a bad light. Thet happened to ask why I chose Jay over him that time when we've all met. How cheeziee!!!

My attention was brought back to the tips for the heart broken and getting over and moving on stuff by my new textmate from this site that I have been eves-dropping on. And these articles indeed have taught me to weather the emotional storm that I am in, to believe in my self and to get on loving my self even more. I shared with him the same articles that I have been reading that has made my emotions stronger and driven me to get out real fast.

The highlight of the sharing process on the "moving-on and letting-go" topic was the NO CONTACT CONTRACT. It goes to say that we as broken hearted and recently separated individuals MUST NOT at all cost get in touch with the assholes in our past and never to orchestrate any elaborate accidental meeting with the, again, asshole.

This said I will have to end my day soon coz Bam is already here and I am starving to death!

So to the chosen few chauvinist pigs in the world--- YOU ROCK!!! Get a gun and kill yourself!

Appended:
Bam and I went to St. Francis Square Mall and dropped by the alley on the outskirts of this mall. There we savoured Takoyaki. I have tasted this Japanese deli from Ash while Bam has not. It was also from St. Francis but then Ash bought it from the 2nd level stall inside the mall. Tasted good. That's it. Bam commented that it was like squidballs. Yes Bam, it has squid and vegetables squeezed inside that's why... we also indulged in a serving each of sundae on sugar cone to get some brain freeze for a few minutes!

The shuttle was a few minutes delayed and we arrived at Market Market. I dropped by the Harte-Hanks area. As usual the security of the facility got into my nerves ONLY this time I WAS TAME... I was civilized/urbanized! They sounded more accommodating.

Gang (Edgar Pama) fetched us at MM and we went to his shanty (hahaha kidding Gang). Edgar found shelter near our office. It really is more of a bungalow. Bam and I met Kuya Boy (who really has the resemblance of Boy Abunda, I guess, complementing his age and baldness). Present on the crash pad was a homo couple, Pao and Jayson (whose gender I was unable to anatomize). Pao is effemme. I feel that effemmes are finding it harder to thrive in this society. More so, getting a partner who is real as opposed to those discreet and straight-looking/acting homo persons. For one, while the niche of effemmes are the sounding-straight men, the pa-men's are rejoicing amongst themselves. Given this kind of market for effemmes I have this great frustration that we are always on the brink of maltreatment and exploitation, add to that the stigma that the society inflicts and the oppression that one feels.

Talking about love in this kind of relationship we all agreed that most are fugitive, fly-by-night, fugacious, passing, perishable, and provisional partners. Speaking of perishable you really have to consume them before they expire! From this momentary bliss we cherish whatever the status-quo is because we recognize the inevitability of its end. One has to treasure the moment and live. Simply live. Enjoy. This is an ephemeral relationship. One has to live its episodes. Be prepared for its spasmodic nature.

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Monday Mornings

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Happy Birthday Lourds!

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Trip to Bataan

Dried Pusit

Free Music Download

Happy Slip

Sunday: Movies I watched today

Night out with SAA schoolmates

Randy Pausch Last Lecture: Achieving Your Childhood Dreams

Randy Pausch Lecture: Time Management

POWER Windows!

HONDA CITY

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eSnips

An Inconvenient Truth (Al Gore talks about Global Warming)

Alvin and the Chipmunks

After Sex

88 Minutes

Justice League Movie 2008

Holy Week 2008

Bad Company

Vantage Point

Meet The Spartans

3 Pigs and a BABY

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Alicia Silverstone

Dr. Dolittle: Tail To The Chief

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